Monday, May 02, 2005

Derelict Daughter??

I haven't made any reservations or plans for my mother's Mother's Day "event".

I'm an only child.

I'm going to admit it: I'm a little confused.

I AM A MOTHER, twice over, to my little ones. So MY Mother's Day plans have revolved around what I'm going to do with my little ones. Not that my mom is not involved, or appreciated, but I have omitted her as my focus.

Heck....Since no one has access to my home to do it...I'm hoping BigSon can make me some boiled eggs and toast for breakfast. Maybe even some Hot Dogs (he can make some mean kosher franks) Anyway, I want to have a day about ME, since I'm worn out and I feel I deserve some recognition.

I'm buying myself some tix to see Mint Condition and maybe even Rahsaan Patterson at a couple of venues this month. I might even splurge and get tix to Kenny Lattimore too! It's all about me.

I saw a beautiful gift on TV which I'd ordered...and had it not been broken when it arrived, I'd have had it engraved with a thoughtful phrase and the kids give it to her for Mother's Day. I had to send it back though...and I haven't thought about it since.

I will have the kids do something for her in recognition of her grandmothership...but I'm the MOMMY right now. I guess this post is driven because there are times when I feel like she's competing for MOMMY-DOM with my own kids. I had to set her straight recently about coming into MY house and setting "rules" for when my BigSon was supposed to do 'A-B-C'. I had to tell her that that was my domain and the rules that I've already set are what he follows.


Maybe I'm just being Vain and Self-Centered??

We had a good talk on the phone yesterday, but I do tire of talking to her sometimes, especially if the conversation is not directed toward some particular topic. I love her, but once we've exhausted the topic, we can hang up. Besides, not prolonging B.S. conversing will keep it fresh for next time.

Eh...maybe I'm hormonal. Or maybe, it's like I've been saying all along: My tolerance for B.S. is growing shorter by the year. I do know there are two people that I've met in the last 8 years that I can vibe with on the level that I vibe with only 1 other person, T & F. Both of those chicks live outta state though. F was only here temporarily on an assignment and T moved a couple of years after we got out of college. She's coming for the summer, a couple of weeks.
I'll be very happy.

For now, I guess I'm just remiss or something. Oh well. At least I know it.